I have never been much of a wordsmith. There has always been thoughts and actions stuck in my head that I haven't been able to relay by mouth, paper, or act. Time and time again, this has cost me more than mere triviality. It has finally cost me too much and I am no longer willing to stay within my status quo.
I have lost almost everything I could lose. A stable job, being debt free, a place of my own, military service, firefighter service, friends, and a loving girlfriend, to name what pops to mind at the moment. I can no longer live the way I have been living. Everything changes today.
I will fight tooth and nail to regain what I can. I am undergoing a transformation and I will no longer take no for an answer. This is the end of the old me. Say goodbye as I don't intend for it to come back.
I've been down this road before. Dozens of times. It's a good place to be, and a good place to re-visit as you go through life. Be patient with your self. You didn't get here in a week. :) I would also like to send you a book, if you'd be willing to provide an address. Let me know. Either way I'll be praying (with) you. -T
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