The past week has been an emotional roller coaster. I've experienced complete breakdowns over things lost and joy at things gained. Always have I been afraid that I can't feel, can't be broken, can't change. Although I am still working on the third, the other two have been proven wrong.
A positive thing that has happened in the past few days is that I have accepted two full time jobs that are five minutes from each other. One is inspecting trucks and trailers, while the other is a call center sales position. If I can get over my service mindset, I think the sales position will be a breeze.
Ironically, the truck inspection job is the same exact job she had before she quit. Two days after the breakup, I get hired on to fill the gap she left. I am doing things she used to do and l find it hard to deal with this fact. Yet I soldier on.
Everything I did, I used to share with her. And now that I am branching my life out and doing things I should have done long before, it is almost impossible to not feel boxed in knowing I can't let her know of my overdue accomplishments. Victory is still victory, but it doesn't give as much satisfaction when the spearhead is missing.
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